Tag: Poetry

Aroog Khaliq, M3, Class of 2025

8 o’clock in the morning watching a red moon
blossom on a woman’s neck, holding open the
edges for the carpenters to saw and scrape, to
heal the way they know how—tiny blades, tinier
forges. the small, hurried movements of their
wrists a dance i cannot mimic with any grace,
and there is no room to stumble, not here.

10 o’clock in the morning, my own gloves stained
with blood from my little blunt efforts, retracting
that little moon into fullness, then snipping it into
an eternal crescent. the case is not yet over, even
when the deft hands still and away. still, there are
my bloody gloves, a woman under blue drapes,
wet and dry cloths on her sweet, slumbering face.

10:07, and i find my own deftness in the gentlest
touch, cloth wiping away orange iodine stains
around even the nares. good morning, ma’am—
you were here, and i, too, took care of you.

Simon Longhi, M3, Class of 2025

Love                       your Patients.

Her voice shakes
Gaze averts down, slowly,
hiding welled-up eyes.
But she takes a deep breath,
and states
for me:
“I feel like I’m falling apart inside… but, no.
They’re my kids, they’ve got their own lives,
… I can’t put that burden on them.”

I glance down, quickly,
at my quadrant-folded, wrinkled sheet of paper.
Lurching for an anchor– the right thing to say next,
from my scrawled, inadequate
pre-charting mess:
Myra M., 59yo lady, hx MDD moderate in remission, GAD
HR rep, three adult children, married 33 yrs
Lives w/husband (restaurant mgr, stopped working)–
recent frontotemporal dementia dx.

Myra was losing her husband, quickly.
She was becoming alone, slowly.
Her wrenching words,
yet suppressing outright despair.
Self-aware weakness,
yet wearing strength for others.
Devastating dichotomy.
I know this. Feel this.
My lips quiver, my own space behind the eyes
wells up,
because…
I saw my mom, in Myra.

My mom sacrificed everything,
for my sisters–
Autistic. Aggressive. Screaming.
Incontinent. Inconsolable. Seizures.
Innocent. Utterly un-independent.
Too much.
Worry constant, peace extinct.

The whole story feels untellable.
As a kid, processing this,
Puts the proverbial tip of the iceberg
To shame.

But Dad worked, paid the bills,
And really, I got to live free
without that wrenching responsibility.
Because, my mom insisted on it.
… Well, not in words, mostly unspoken
But I promise you, she lived it,
for me.
She may as well have said:
“Simon, I love you, do all that you ever want
with your life – Don’t worry about your sisters, please.
Keep going, don’t hold back, this is not your burden,
I got it. The world is yours, and this burden is mine.”

All of that past
is here now
in this clinic room.
In the span of a second or so, I feel everything
for this patient I just met.
I fold and re-fold the edges of my paper
Grip my pen more tightly,
as if it can absorb my nerves,
and contain a shudder in my chair.
Myra… mom… meaning.
Beautifully blurred lines in my mind.
I know where my compassion comes from,
and I’m proud of that.

But, I’m the healer now.
I have to be strong
this time– for my patient
For Myra.
FOCUS, on taking deeper history,
FOCUS, on forming treatment plan.
Love your patient, sure,
but don’t fall off that cliff of transference.
Yes, take in the view
That harrowing expanse.
But teeter well
on that cliff’s edge
Stay standing.
It’s your solemn duty.

Okay, deep breath–
next questions,
but still, keep listening.
Watery eyes are fine,
but no tears,
not right now.
Guide Myra on.
It’s my calling, my honor–
what my mom
Selflessly
imagined for me
all along.

I love                  you.

“Oh. Okay. ‘Burden’. Tell me more about that.”